my music is either extremely awful or extremely well done… and nowadays I can’t tell XD

Weekly 3rd on the siren! Thanks Newgrounds and @Tomfulp! :D

check out the song as well! :D

“Come closer my love… don’t be scared”… those were the last words I heard.

Song:

Video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SbUDqfN1U0s

I returned to a music artist known as Incubus, after remembering some of their songs such as Drive, Aqueous Transmission, and Pardon me… but one of their albums, Morning View, peaked my interest since it looked sorta like something I would use for a song cover.

I listened to it starting with Mexico, since that name oddly called me. But just as I was about to start an art project to do as the album went on… this played… and I just had to share it with you all… a song I loved from when I was 5-6 years old, forgotten, but has came back to life. The minute I heard that iconic melody, for just a split second, my eyes widened in shock, my heart felt it was about to burst… damn was this a nostalgic trip

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmJQvCS1T3c

Still a bit anxious about my health but I’ve been getting more comfortable in my skin again :D

So I’ve got some shit on the way, might release two song in one week if we’re lucky and school decides to be good to me. Also I made monkeybread with the cooking team!

and we got a new panini press! We making a grilled cheese with this one

But overall, been doing good! Exercise routine still going strong! And overall I feel better about myself! Love y’all! Hope you have a nice day!

I’m just gonna admit it… as hard as I try it doesn’t matter in the first place because my samples are fucking SHIT!

The orchestral samples I use are shit, the electronic samples are shit, everything I use is shit because I’m a broke teen with nothing more than some headphones and a few mobile devices. And I just want to say sorry for my low quality music.

I might also quit NGMC because of this (key word: MIGHT) cause I finally realized thanks to @3manonmusic and @Arponax my samples… they just suck. I had a little bit of a hint as to why I may be shit at music from @ChronoNomad after he gave me some critique on Wildflowers 2, but now it’s official.

I also want to thank @AED4 for making this competition because without it I would’ve continued to be unaware of why my music never gets frontpaged… now I have an answer.

Im actually kinda shocked that I’ve made it to 550 fans with the samples I’ve used, it’s starting to appear that maybe something else is behind the scenes.

I always try my best, that is something I can promise, but I’m sorry that my “best” is so low quality. Maybe @Overscore was right, people don’t follow me for my music, they follow me cause of who I am… I find this both wholesome and depressing… is there a word for it

And no, I’m not quitting, some weirdos actually like my music XD, but in terms of quality, I’m not good… at all XD. But to those who genuinely anticipate and can’t wait for the stuff I make, Thank you for everything, I wouldn’t go on without you people.

@G2961 I FOUND THE REASON I NEVER GET FRONTPAGED, AND IT HAS EVIDENCE RATHER THEN THEORIES!

2 of my best songs, Zethra and Velocity, can be found on bandcamp now! I’d recommend checking them out!

https://cf24.bandcamp.com/music

A pretty epic collab from both me and @MusicBySpektral, the song ain’t heat, it’s ice cold dude.

Video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qNDbYRr5A7Y

also it’s our submission for the first NGMC

So I got a bandcamp, might upload a bunch of my other extremely iconic musics to it soon, but I prolly won’t upload much to it lol XD

https://cf24.bandcamp.com/track/geyserstrike

Theres one song on it, but I’ll put more, don’t worry

thanks @Shangxian for letting me know I got in the top takeover tuesdays!

In other news, still alive, and marks my 2 weeks of exercise! I’m gonna keep moving forward of course, this exercise is kinda fun lol. Painful, but fun!

I have also made a portfolio, some of my works that have distinct styles, and just ones I’m purely proud of really!

All my music is free as long as im credited, I also prefer to be let known about it!

For the past week I’ve been feeling strange, anxious, and just purely terrified. I’m doing my best to push forward and have been doing my best every single day… but somewhere deep it just feels I might be die soon. Probably not, hopefully not, but it’s a possibility, it always is.

I don’t mean to sound corny or any dumb ah shi, but part of the reason I’ve been crying my eyes out is… you. No matter how but you always support me, you make me want to keep going, keep improving, and keep trying. I can’t promise I’ll live forever, but I can promise I’ll try my best to…

I love you all.