My birthday was celebrated today cause the weekend was just more convenient… and well, although it was starting off great, one thing happened that made the entire day feel like hell… one of our dogs died, likely due to a heart attack.

My mother was crying a lot today, since she had a special attachment to her, which only made me feel even more like shit, even gone to me blaming myself for her death. For the rest of the day people seemed to be able to hide and temporarily forget the death, but somehow I just couldn’t get my mind off it, I even felt the loneliest I’ve ever felt in my life when my family was singing happy birthday to me with the cake in front of me.

I questioned whether or not I should make this post cause I feel it may just seemed I was trying to get attention, but I decided to anyway cause I don’t know anything else to do… I’m sure I’ll get over this eventually, but man, it’s been a long day, I’m tired, scared, and honestly just feel like everything is hopeless. At least I got some more posters, one of them being a fanart by @EmperorBismark, thanks a lot man, I love you.

Well, I guess I’ve got one or 2 songs on the way, and I may as well share the posters. Thank you all for your support.